Tomorrow is the first day in my 39 years that I will wake up without an alarm because I haven't got a job.
I wasn't fired, I wasn't laid off, I was replaced and opted for redundancy. A decision that many would gape at after 16 years in the radio industry, but you know what...it was a decision easily made, based solely on my gut instinct. And in all honesty, I couldn't be happier or feel freer.
Unfortunately I haven't been blessed with the winning Lotto ticket or a sugar daddy - I've chosen to chase some dreams - and yes I'm aware those six words make me sound like a stoner. But it's what I'm doing. That and keeping a regular diary of what this experience is going to be like.
I've had moments since I got the news four weeks ago that I could be losing my job. Fleeting moments of panic but they've been quickly dissolved into the feeling of excitement, freedom and anticipation. The challenge is what is driving me, that and my pedantic work ethic and newfound confidence I discovered this year. (NB not to be confused with arrogance, after all I'm pretty shy and realistic)
My dream is to write. A column, a blog, a book and freelance journalism for magazines and thick Sunday newspapers.
Murphy's Law that I also fell in love - both with the city I currently live in and with an amazing guy who keeps me balanced and laughing. As with many girls, I've been unlucky in love several times, plus I've always had a yearning to return to my hometown. I can't even relate to those two former aspects of myself any more and it's great.
Saturday is my favorite day. So let's get this journey underway and see if every day can be a Saturday as I set out to chase those dreams I've had for at least 25 years.
Tarsh
So, the morning show totally SUCKS now. I understand it's a good thing for you, but you will be missed...as will your fellow cohorts from the morning show. Keep it real, use spell check, and correct mistakes as you go along (Your dream is TO write, not TOO write). You'll do well and we wish you all the best!
ReplyDeleteSorry about the punctuation and spelling. Feel so embarrassed....it is my impatience that stops me checking but I will from now on.
ReplyDeleteGood luck to you Tarsh! Get on that writing bandwagon and give it hell! :-)
ReplyDeleteI just started a blog here recently too, as a method of reminding me I need to keep at the writing thing. Check me out at http://5foot19.blogspot.com/ - as usual the most recent one is first.